It's become a long week....

My week has had so many ups & downs, physically and emotionally.... I was blessed this week with a beautiful letter and a so much needed & appreciated gift from a dear friend who truly blesses me daily with the power of prayer & her wise words ;-) so my emotions & tears have been happy, sad or rather frustrated or probably both crying sessions, also from severe bouts of excruciating & unimaginable pain! Geez, the word excruciating comes up after 2 letters on the auto spell thing! I must use it ALOT!! I have found great support from a great group I have joined online- great & amazing people having to endure this horrific disease as well..... I have found so many resourceful links to share from diets to supplements & more. May be tomorrow since I am feeling so rough but I will get them here! Wondering which direction & which state to find the care & treatment I do desperately seek, & how much $$ it will cost. I feel it is the time to do whatever I need! Sick & tired of being Sick & tired!! I want to take control of my life back, this damn disease has taken 4 long years I can never get back!!